Hey there. Yep, I’m nonetheless right here. Soz for the radio silence, obtained a bit overwhelmed by stuff and therefore felt the necessity to cover away and distance myself from social media and all that shiz for some time. Anxiousness ranges had been excessive, my gremlin sturdy, and any sense of my true self had effectively and actually fucked off. I used to be a hormonal wreck, in want of a while out. Which is precisely what I did. And boy has it performed me the world of fine. I’m again feeling stronger, happier, and extra like I can deal with this shit and so I believed seeing because it’s a brand new 12 months I’d begin a brand new little characteristic on my weblog, which is principally me having a weekly mind dump. The concept being that I get to creatively empty out the contents of my poor overactive thoughts, while additionally hopefully offering you lot with a couple of giggles and perhaps a way of aid if you happen to’re feeling some of these items too.
New Year Resolutions
What a load of bollocks. I’m not gonna sugar coat this shit (or glitter the turd – my new favorite saying) I hate new 12 months resolutions. They do my bloody head in. Firstly, nobody sticks to them. Secondly, January is shite sufficient as it’s with out including much more crap to the pile. And thirdly, certainly we’ve all had sufficient of restrictions!!!
There may be a lot strain presently of 12 months to set resolutions and targets for the 12 months forward. Social media feeds are inundated with photos of individuals beginning new diets, new train regimes, operating each day, not ingesting, reducing this, reducing that, or no matter else they really feel wants altering. However to me, all this narrative tells us is that who we’re is just not ok. Which is a bucketload of bollocks in my view.
I get that January appears a logical time to reassess, to start out afresh. And I’m all for that to a point, in spite of everything a bit of little bit of self enchancment by no means did anybody any hurt, it’s by no means good for us to relaxation on our laurels so to talk. What I do have an issue with, is the way it’s offered to us and the strain of feeling as if you ‘have’ to make a decision. I’ll be completely trustworthy with you, I caved this 12 months. I sat down with a pen and pocket book decided to jot down a listing of issues that wanted to alter. I spent ages staring down on the clean web page in entrance of me racking my mind, attempting to think about something, something in any respect that I may resolve to alter. Don’t get me fallacious, I not at all assume I’m excellent, nor do I would like or attempt to be, however what bothered me is how desirous about resolutions created a detrimental narrative inside me. As a result of the extra I struggled to give you any, the extra it made me really feel as if this was simply one other factor that I had failed at. Fucking good. I ripped out the web page, screwed it up, threw it within the bin and promised myself this – that this 12 months greater than anything I’ll stay true to myself. Not a decision. A promise.
Little HRT Replace
I’m in a extremely good place hormones sensible in the intervening time. There was a little bit of a blip after I first began the HRT, in that it appeared to be making my anxiousness worse regardless of all of the bodily signs being alleviated. I introduced this up at my 3 month examine up and my dose was upped. Only one month on and I’m happy to say that contact wooden all the things appears to be doing what it ought to. I take progesterone drugs for half the month and am now on 3 pumps of oestrogen gel each night time. Each the bodily and psychological signs that I used to be experiencing have now all just about disappeared. Which is a (pardon the pun) bloody miracle! I’d love to do a couple of extra posts on my expertise of this, as I understand how a lot of you’re going via related, or at the very least suspect you may be. It’s at all times actually useful to listen to from you about what you’d like me to put in writing about, questions you may need, and so forth. so please do get in contact and let me know. My DM’s are at all times open, and regardless of the fairly impersonal automated response, I’ll get again to you. The courageous a part of me wonders whether or not a Fb stay may very well be a goer… however then the scaredy pants aspect of me thinks nobody would flip up and that may be awks. So yeah, let me know what you consider this too please my loves.
Beginning As I Imply To Go On
A few fortnight earlier than Christmas I fell ailing, like correct take to my mattress ailing. I don’t actually do ailing. I combat it, refuse to really feel it, battle on. Us females are good at that, proper? Anyway, this notably nasty bug, effectively and actually floored me. In fact, the pure response was to assume it was Covid, cos effectively that’s what we’ve been brainwashed into pondering. A Pack of lat flows and a PCR check later, revealed it wasn’t Covid. 10 days spent largely in mattress, not consuming, shitting yellow liquid out of my poor sore bumhole, and coughing up chunks of lung butter, I emerged feeling and searching like an emaciated Victorian road urchin. It wasn’t fairly.
I do know that is going to sound correct woo woo bizarre, as a result of actually I believe it was simply flu and sure I’m 100% signing as much as a flu jab subsequent 12 months, there is part of me that thinks that perhaps, simply perhaps, me catching this bug was for a purpose. That perhaps I had been combating issues for thus lengthy, that each one of my energies had develop into blocked, that maybe my physique wanted a ginormous bodily and psychological purge to ensure that it to reset. Does that sound loopy? Since then, I’ve felt this shift in me. Clearly, I really feel immensely higher in myself now that I’m consuming correctly once more and capable of depart the home and train. However my mindset has additionally modified since then. It’s as if I’m lighter, like one thing has been lifted from me, and it brings with it essentially the most immense aid let me inform you.
Final 12 months was a shit present – each actually and figuratively – however I’ve come out of it and moved into 2022 feeling extra like me than I’ve in an extended outdated time and it feels superior.
So no, I received’t be making resolutions, they’re effectively and actually getting into my fuck it bucket. This woman has obtained no extra shits to present – fairly actually!!
I hope you loved this week’s mind dump. Come again subsequent week for extra!
Within the meantime, if you happen to wanna get in contact, it’s probs finest to go on over to one in every of my socials the place I’m gonna attempt to be a bit extra lively once more on, with out letting it utterly run the present.
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Becky Stafferton is a content material creator, full time procrastinator and mum of two children and 1 aggy cockapoo. She tries to advertise a sensible, sustainable and constructive picture of the way to lead a wholesome life, while additionally sustaining the truth that life ain’t all fluffy clouds and rainbows. When she’s not writing or sitting on her arse scrolling via social media, she may be discovered operating via muddy puddles, making lists of lists, having a great outdated moan, doing random Google searches and squatting like her life is determined by it.